Thursday, January 24, 2013

When Did I Change?

In BBC's "Robin Hood" there's a quote by Maiden Marian that goes along the lines of, "What is it with men and glory?"

Up until sometime recently I was one of those men. I sought grandeur. I wanted to be great. I wanted to be remembered in the history books, or in the science books. I wanted to known for my genius and innovation. 

I don't know if I do anymore...

It's not that I don't want to do great things in my career. I do! But that's not what's most important to me now. That's not what I am passionate about, it's not what I get emotional about. 

I'm not exactly sure when this happened, all I know is that it feels so right.



Though doing something like this:

would be amazing!




I'm much more passionate and so much more excited about doing this:


I'm honestly convinced being a father is the most important thing I will do on this earth. And I'm so excited for it!




Monday, January 21, 2013

So Close, Yet So Far




If there was anyone who absolutely wanted to be on a mission right now literally ANY where, so long as they could preach the gospel. Their name is Nick Walton.

Honestly I don't know how I survive. I had a dream the other night that I was in the MTC. When I woke up and realized I wasn't I was completely distraught!

I just want to be out blessing the lives of others already! Recently I've been volunteering at the referral center at the MTC. And rather than curbing my hunger for missionary work, it's just enlarging my hunger to a ravenous black hole. I think I had to really see and understand the lives of people without the Gospel to know how much they really need it, even if they don't realize it.

And I'm already beginning to fear the day when my mission will end. Not withstanding the fact that I haven't started yet... But missions don't end when they "end." In fact they don't really begin when they "begin." Our whole lives should be an extension of our desire to share the "good news" of the gospel with others and to enrich their lives. Elder Bednar taught me this in his talk "Becoming a Missionary" which is basically my favorite thing ever.

Though I might have to wait several months to enter the mission field. I don't have to wait to become a missionary. I can become a missionary right now and forever! =D

I can't wait!